Day 4

Not much to say today. No binging, but a lot of weakness and thinking about food. Today's food intake has been the same of yesterday. I want to eat, but I know I would be like an alcoholic sitting down at the bar. I wouldn't stop until I could no longer eat, or a sudden rush of self-hatred hit me so strong I couldn't take it. If by some miracle I was to eat a healthy amount of healthy food, I would still feel guilty.